repeated

I wanted to cried for you, while i held you.

you're amazing. you were much quicker on wanting to de-Pikachu-tizing your room and house then i was. i'm still finding things....

its not going to be easy, as i have said, but i believe in you. you have (at least) five people standing by willing to listen. two may not be able to talk in person but Tall Man and WhiteMM are willing to talk over the phone.
You know where i live, come over anytime you need to.
the last two: your parents, even though one is technically your step-dad, he might be more helpful then you think.

So i thought my mom would be mad at me staying the night, but after you left today she understood. she agreed that 3 am driving wouldnt be a good idea and the smart thing to do was stay over.

Next:
My nails are getting long again..... i should really figure out how to cut them.. but i wont, so for now i'll just let my dad continue to cut them.. haha
but at the same time i like them long, because i like looking at light through them.
I'm in a dilemma.... kind of.

My day:
stayed in bed till around noon today. got up and had banananana pancakes for lunch. (Super Saiyans' mom made them, and they were amazingly good!) then Super Saiyan and i talked for a little bit, and cleaned up some more. then watched DBZ for about 3 ish hours.. and then he took me home, and talked to my dad for about an hour about his job, i think, i left the room. and then he left after my mom got home. and then i finished watching a movie i started Wednesday night (Strictly Sexual), and watched another movie after it (The Babysitters), and now i'm watching another one (The Alphabet Killer).

the first two have tones of sex in them, and the last one is so far about a guy that is killing pre-teen to teen girls, and the cops are tracking him down.

Last:
all will be good again. I'm going to sort out the pictures now... now that I'm home and can look through them for an hour.


Random- repeated:
it will be hard. you will never forget, no matter how hard you try or want to. it does, it really does get better. dont forget her replacement name. came over anytime. DBZ available. and we'll never run out of things to talk about.. haha


Thanks for being there when i needed you, even though i kneed your knee.
and i will always bee here for when you need me. what else are besties for?