you.. yes you

don't worry about any 'rep' of yours.
I wont even mention you're name, its this new thing i'm trying (and failing at in person).

the only thing we can ever be is friends now.

I see I wasn't you're "one", and you're obliviously not mine.
I have never given/and never will give my exs another chance, and i wont lie to myself.
its never worth it. i will get over you.

One day you'll figure this all out, and we'll both be happy again. (or pretend to be if we're not if we see each other again)

I hope:
one day we can go back to being convenient for each other, and be able to talk, with no restrictions on what to say. (but i have this feeling we'll always be awkward)
that you learn how to be relevant with what you say...
you can get past your issues and emotional problems.
you'll care for someone as I did for you, but i hope they leave you in the same place as you left me...

I hope:
you can relay on me with things you use to.
you find another that finds the real you more than you ever let me find.

Most of all i hope you find the "one" you're still looking and left me for.


Good luck with that.

FYI: you should have offered. i was going to say no. but now according to your way of thinking now i have to wait for the next guy after the next guy before i can say yes.. "have to say no to your first offer."

P.S. I'm keeping the name!

i cant stop.

I don't want to be that mad person again.
But i cant stop being emotional about my life.

being mad only generates anger, and anger generates resentment.

I was doing wonderfully with getting out of being a mad person at everything all the time with your help. And now i cant stop being mad, and i cant stop being sad, and i cant stop.

I'm in a downward spiral of going back to being a horribly person and i cant stop myself.

i hate everything more than i did before, and i cant get rid of these damn emotions! I had them bottled up for a reason... I want them all to go away again!

i hate them, and i hate you.
i have nothing left, I'm a wreak... I've tried so many things to be happy; to even smile, and i cant.
I cant stop.


what do i do? i hate being emotional over something so stupid as a break up. I thought i was 'stronger' than that, and this sucks.
I dont know what to do anymore.... And i really dislike not knowing whats next

iCarly :D

yeah yeah... i'm lame.. but whatever!
i like the show.

Conversation.

Conversation.

what will become of the conversations we never had?
or the ones that could have ended differently?

hours.

hours.

4 hours of sleep last night... tried!

and i can stop thinking about the memories. & they wont stop playing like movie

happy town

Gosh damn!

I'm seeing that commercial ALL the time now, and its beginning to look stupid!!
There looks like to much sex and it looks like its trying to hard to be scary.

I cant watch anything on ABC, or tv with out that damn commercial showing up.