Bluest Eyes

"break is too often code for breaking up. I knew that pre[]; just seemed to forget it when I was with him. people change and stuff happens. [..] and sometimes, people are never who you thought they were." ~Bluest Eyes

Okay i like this a lot. because in my mind "breaks" dont happen.. how is that logical??

say you get married.. you get in a fight... then she wants a break??? how does that happen....

breaks are just a way to avoid issues and forget problems. you cant go on a "break" then come back and pretend like everything is all cool again.. you dont get a clean slate when you're still together without being together.

a break in a marriage, is a separation.. to many separations lead to divorce... and thats why the divorce rate is 50% ... too young, too many problems, too many avoidance.
who ever thought of a break? who ever thought it was a good idea??
whoever the first person was, they should be shot in the knee... for such a stupid idea.


PAIN - thats the only thing that comes from breaks. its not a good thing...

bears, princess dolls? which do i obsess over more?

I'm only missing two dolls.... i think i'll go get them next weekend.
i'm not 6 anymore so i'll never open these dolls.. but i like 'em.
i'll keep then good as long as i can. :)

nothing.... but so much!

Today was fairly boring compared to the last few days.

I'm glad i dont have a job though... :)

i still need to finish up my research paper... which sucks.. i hate it already.. it has got the be the worst one i've done in a LONG time..... its awful.. But whatever I will finish it up tonight. Look over it again tomorrow before the concert... and then have my dad read over it Sunday to make sure it sounds all logical.... then turn it in Monday..

And between all that i have to write down all the formulas we have used in Cal 1 for my cheat-sheet (with no examples)... and thats going to be my exciting weekend.. :)



i really need to clean up my room and really throw away a ton of shiz to make room for the re-organizing i want to do....

i also need like 10 binder sized 15-25 pages in them of picture albums... I found a ton of pictures that i want to separate out and put into books... or throw away..


MOTIVATION... (and help) is all i need...

OH and i need to organize my coins too... (i know.. lame but whatever i like 'um!!!~)

such a big to-do list, with no money and no time!