love?

What a funny word? Its thrown around so playfully now-a-days.
I love a lot of people.
but I dont love anyone.
I have loved before.
now love is no more.


I am not sorry, but did realize last week that I stopped loving you a long time ago.
I just didnt let myself believe it because you were the best excuse I could have had for some of the things I did.
I loved the idea of being in love with you.
I am sorry for the awful ways I treated you.
But I am not sorry anymore for us or what happened to us or even how it ended.


Other news:
I fear I am still doing something awful to another. But its to early to tell...