"I am finally thinking for myself" - hahaha!

you should treat life like a cat-- forget all the negative things between feedings.

when trying to belittle me, you should really stop and fully think about what you say before you end up belittling yourself.


Thanks for the lesson on that r.b.o. and bbj's

and most of the thanks should go to a99104. :)

its been 25 years since snow... in SA

but i dont classify this as snow persay... it doesnt mean it wont be snow in a few hours. so the weather people were expecting snow.. and well it isnt exactly snow it is a snow ish like substance.. its falling ice but not huge damage your car hail pieces. nonetheless people here cant drive in rain how is anything going to be accomplished for tomorrow by needing to drive in icey conditions.... i wonder if i'll still need to go to work... since most of the rest of the city will be shut down due to hazardous road conditions. and freezing cold weather ... yay! :)

(is it worse or worst) apples ever

i should have known better, but i did it again. this place is good but in the morning it sucks. the apples they offer for the kids meals are even worse! they are Always browing and getting moldy.... and what does this (branch of the) company do with moldy apples?? they let the costurmer(sp) complain about them.. every bag in the front fridge AND back fridge is browning and getting soft. the yogurt is always disgusting.. i know i should just get a 6" but i usually 'aint feelin that' for breakfast.
it doesnt help that the employees dont give a shit. they could be getting at least 20 kids sick a month with the nasty apples. dont go to the subway on Marbach... if there is another i should avoid let me know... i should have taken a picture of the apples but i didnt think of this post until after i threw them out & the employee tried to give me another bag that look 3xs worse. bleh!

today is another day at work, but today is a particularly crap, cuz i wanna get off early with no ride home.

what will delay us next?

i've three days of class already, since i only go to school on tuse/thurs. my dad has been taking his lunch break to take me class cuz i still dont drive. on my first day of class we ran into half of the access road (the left side to get onto the highway) blocked off cuz the city was re-tarring the road. the next tuse (this last one) we got stuck IN a funeral presession... the some jackass cop on a motorcycle pulled up next to us and honked at us... he was trying to tell us to get out and go to the next lane when a semi was coming... so we had to change lanes. i hate do..shh cops. day three -slash- yesterday the left lane of the highway was closed off cuz the city was changing out the dead highway lights.

what will we run into next.....? hahaha

June 9th 2010

"Tigger ate our screen door... basically. He was left outside during the rain and as usual he freaked out and tried to get back in.... and i guess kept jumping on the door and tore the bottom half off.

We all though our dad may be a little mad about it, but it didnt even bother him... It kind of sounded like he had compassion for the dog, and sympathized with him being outside in the rain... And he has been wanting to replace the door for a while now; this just gives him the motive to do it."



That is part of the blog post... and we still havent replaced the screen door, or at the least the screen part to the back door.
but its not a big deal. it still works, we just cant open the little window part because then the bugs can get in and my cat can get out... and Jake would stick his big nose in and get clawed by War.

H&R block is FUN!

working there is fun to me.. BUT the rehiring process is not so much because they always seem to lose my application (Which is done ONline...)

i went to a CSP job fair

so i contact bill.. and apparently H&R had a "boss meeting" today.. and bill told jason that i was trying to contact someone. so Bill told jason to contact me.. and we didnt set anything up for a particular day because he had another class at 6.. and it was 555...

so hopefully he calls me back tonight or tomorrow with some kind of interview information. But he said that he "has heard 'good' things about me from the people at the meeting" (so i'm guessing bill and stacey..) and i wonder what they have said.. haha

Next...
If they hire me back on ... i may be going back to work without any new CSP training.. cuz the only training they have for CSPs is next week on tuseday and wednesday and *** Dress Rehearsal *** on thursday for everyone in the office. (and i'll be gone until the 4th of Jan)



*^^*&$*(#Q^* This blog was made before i went to Connecticut for christmas break... But now.. i found it again.

So for the newest update about this, i did get back on the 4th, and went to training on the 6th (they had to make a 'make-up' training for me and about 8 other people) and then i went to work on the 7th.
and now i've been at work since and school recently started up last thursday for me.. so i have to figure out a schedule that works for me... so i am able to juggle school and work effectively without both suffering. but if one has to suffer it would be work first.

Happy, happy birthday!

Today my brother turns 20! Yay!! :)

Thrusday i had my first day of classes... :s
I have 4 classes or 12 hours this semester.
2 psychology classes and 2 English classes.

Social Psychology 12:30 pm - 1:50 pm TR
History and Systems of Psyc 2:00 pm - 3:20 pm TR
Spec Topic:Harlem Renaissance 4:00 pm - 5:20 pm TR
The Major Plays of Shakespeare 5:30 pm - 6:50 pm TR

The first Psych class i have seems like it will be easy.. but looks are very deceiving. The teacher/professor is very easily distracted.. so hopefully if we dont cover something in the class it wont be required to study for the tests.

The next Psych class that i have is going to be a lot harder!

i'll have to fix and finish this later.. :(


Update:
My second psych teach smacks his lips every sentence! it is so obnoxious! and he just talks.. and goes on tangents.. but when he talks i'm not even sure if those are his notes and i should be writing what he says or if i can find his notes online somewhere... or if he is just going to talk and i have to just read the chapters intently and write down the things i dont understand to go over in class.

Then i have the two English classes.

English class number one. the teacher wants to be called by her first name Ann or by Dr. Bliss. nothing else, no mrs or misses or ms. she has lived over half her life in CA, and Texas but she has been able to somehow maintain her British accent. so that is awesome! :) and she sweats a LOT.. maybe it is just nerves. but it doesnt matter that much, just something i've noticed.

and my last English teacher for the Shakespeare course is from the Philippines, so i really cant understand much if anything that she says... and its really bugging me, because i dont think i'm going to do so hot if i dont know what she is saying... and i dont want to be rude, but i hope i'm not the only one that doesnt understand her....

starting a boring day...

noticed... that the song "falling to pieces" in the beginning sounds just like the song that starts out with "i'm givin' up, i'm givin' up slowly"
i've been thinking about it everytime i hear the song but i didnt remember/think of it until just now while sitting in subway waiting for 10am to roll around. it does help that faling to pieces came on the radio.r is required.

smashburger problem.

today i went to smashburger with my parents and brother.
i had a "create your own" chicken sandwich. I ordered the crispy chicken, chipotle bun, buffalo and chipotle sauces, pickles and jalapeno vegges and pepper jack cheese.

I GOT crispy chicken, Wheat bun, mayonnaise covered up by the chipotle sauce and drenched in the buffalo sauce (way to much of all three) Tomatoes, lettuce, 3 pickles and a few jalapenos and NO cheese.
I did ask the person walking around for more pickles. but other then that i was so mad with the incompetence of the person who put it together that i didnt go and correct it.. i had a feeling i would have been there all night and wasted more food trying to get it right.

when i asked for more pickles the lady i asked went and asked another guy and he was "joking" (says my dad) but her was getting on her case about how the order he got said No pickles so he wasnt going to give her any, and that went on for about 4 minutes so i was waiting to eat my food because he thought it would be funny. and when i thought about it, the order said NO tomatoes... but he didnt even read that right..
so the receipts should really have a print out of NO "this" and ADD "that" under all the orders of burgers and chicken sandwiches.

i havent been to smashburger very many times, and i only ever get the things dealing with chicken, but they have never gotten my order right! because of that tonight was the last night and i will never go back there again.

with the ice inside your soul

why is it so hard for me to write a blog now? there are so many great ideas in my head that i want to write down, for no other reason then to get them out of my head.
as for this title and the last one (and possibly the next few) its been the song stuck in the back of my mind for about the last 2-3 weeks. jar of hearts by christina perri. i'm making it the song of the week... 'member that thing that i was trying to do about 1.5 months ago.. well i forgot about it.

you're gonna catch a cold...

the first "full" day out in Connecticut we went to a store that has one step above what i have in Texas. at this store you get one of the scanner things and you go through the store and scan your own items. and at the end you scan a barcode at a self service cashier and place the scanner in a charger thing and you just pay. so you dont even need to take the things out of your cart (unless you need bags-- but my aunt and uncle have reusable bags so they dont take anything out of the cart). then you scan your coupons, pay and leave. at the store in Texas for the self service lines you have to take your stuff out of the cart, scan it, then bag it on a weight. you also have to leave everything on the weight until you are done with everything out of your shopping cart.

after the store we went back home and talked watched some tv, made dinner and then went to the "candlelight" concert that my aunts eldest son was in.


and that was my first day. i will try to remember to post the details of my other days in the next week or so.. until then i'm off to bed now because i'm going into NYC again tomorrow to go to the crown of the Statue of Liberty.

why so mean?

he looks pissed, no? oh poor Famine.

i thought of something the other day that i had forgotten about.. the song of the week. one that has been in my head for a while has been jar of hearts by some female of which i forget the name.

so after i landed in connecticut we had dinner. it has been the only time (up until yesterday) that i didnt have a home cooked meal while here. my aunt and uncle home cook everything but pizza. they even have a compost. i've been tasting everykind of wine that is around, and its def.ly something that is an aquired taste. i dont think i have the aquire for it. but its good for 'you'. i even tried some coneact(sp). it was gross. the first four days i was here all we did was make cookies. a plate for a teacher apperiaction lunch, a plate for a school dance, a plate for aunts church, a plate for a christmas party. thats a lot of cookies!

last for this post is my aunts youngest child is enforcing the reason of why i will never produce spawn for this world >:|

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where is the bathroom?

follow the duck feet. this past monday i went on a plane all by myself. yay me. my day started at about 815. my dad and i got up to go to the vet to get more flee meds for the cats. before we left my dad put my stuff into the car. when we got home about 845, we had to pick up Famine first (cuz hes the brat with the med). after he ran off we scooped up War & gave him the med. when that was done i went around the house & took pictures of the people and pets then my dad and i got in the car and my dad drove me off to the airport. my flight from SA to DC was almost 4 hours. on the plane we were able to watch "the Switch" *for free*. my next flight was lame. the pilot made us wait for 30 after we were suppose to leave for the lav to be cleaned out. wasted time cuz no one used in the the hour flight. when i got to NY/Conneticut we went to Stew Lenoards(sp) that was fun. then we wemt home &
got settled in. it was about 830/9 so i ate something, watched tv for a while then called it a night!!!

"Told you from the start.. I'm only gonna break.. your heart"

One friend likes pictures with blog posts. :)



December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

breaking up with MnotT i would have to say was the wisest... How did it play out? like a low budget break up movie.

after i broke up with him his mom had a fit, then she immedeatly tried to patch things up. MnotT on the other hand had a mental/emotion fit. And all he did with his outbreak was confirm that i didnt want to be friends with him anymore. No big loss on my end. not even a big deal...
Now he has become even more childish, and he refuses to let his mom mention me/my name. But she still wants to be friends with me regardless of his current PMS attitude. I dont even know what i did to make him hate me so much. GICK

With current events, i still dont know how to feel about his mom. She wants to be friends i know that, but it seems like she is still mad at me. she can still snap in an instant which worries me, but still wants to talk to me for some reason.

Moral of the stuff above:
Keep your emotions in Check! And when you get into a New relationship dont let yourself "fall in love" in less then 2 weeks, cuz when shit hit the fan everyone smells it.


NEXT:
this will (hopefully) be the last thing i ever mention about MnotT. I told you from the start that i wasnt a good person to date. I told you i was going to ruin the relationship, and that would ruin the friendship. You read my blogs before we started dating you Knew that i wasnt going to be good. Yet for some reason you thought you could "change me" and that "we'd be fine" and "some other crap." But I Told You. You Knew!
The main reason i started dating you is because i just gave up fighting you about your pointless reasons on why we should date, and how you thought i would be different... so i guess it was more of a point i was trying to make. Either i knew you wanted to ruin our friendship because you wouldnt be able to keep your emotions in check OR you wanted to try and "change me"... it turned out to be both.

People dont change. they just put up fronts until they are comfortable with the people around them. I Know My Own M.O. when it comes to dating. its been in place since my first boyfriend. (that is the last 15 years of my life) there is no way you are going to change it.

So its your own fault that you feel in love for someone who told you not to and told you it was destined to fail.

Moral of this section: when someone says something they know is a fact about themselves, dont try and change that persons mind... You'll just look like a ska-do-shh after its all said and done.

*these morals are strictly opinion and not supported by the blog site.. and blah blah whatever else is said when live show

our new cat toy

December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)

This past Saturday my family and I made a huge cat scratcher. http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=585901&id=631595051 (linked in title)

we used:
SUPPLIES
•10 x wide elbows (Lowes part number: 96076 A21 2X1 ANGLE)
•2 x narrow elbows (Lowes part number: 315683 STAN 1-1/2” ZN CNR BRC)
•22 x .5 inch washers
•26 x .75 inch screws
•44 x 1 inch screws
•2 x scrap lumber (½ inch thick, by 3.5 inches wide, by 36 inches long)
•1 x concrete tube (10 inches in diameter, by 48 inches tall)
•1 x edge-glued wood panel .75 inches thick, by 20 inches wide, by 36 inches long
•½ bucket of plaster (about 6 lbs) **WE modified this with a 50 pound bag of sand)
•A few feet of duct tape
•5 x rolls of sisal (.25 inches thick, by 100 feet long, for a total of 500 ft)
•1 x plywood circle (12 inch diameter or 18 inch if you have two or more cats)
•1 x circle of foam (12 inch diameter or 18 inch if you have two or more cats)
•1 x circle of cloth batting (12 inch diameter or 18 inch if you have two or more cats)
•1 x large bottle of fast-drying wood glue (16 oz) **WE used a hot glue gun
•1 x piece of cloth or carpet to cover the top platform (I used a cotton bath mat.) **and we used carpet that we pulled up in the summer when we were redoing the dinning room.
We also have “two or more cats” so we used the bigger options where they apply.


it only took about 6-8 hours to complete and our cats were trying to use it before we were done making it.
And my dad claims that they dont like it because he never sees them use it... But they use it ALL the time.. He is usually at work when they use it the most. :) i think they do it on purpose so he cant see them use it.

my cat, Famine, likes to perch at the top, and War likes to get a running start and jump as high as he can... Then spider-man around the side before he starts to stretch and scratch on it.

lots to say, and so little attention

meaning i have a lot of things that i want to type... which i'll have to do over numerous blogs given that most people only read about half a page worth before they get bored.. haha....

87% of statistics are made up on the spot.. :) meaning, I dont know how much people actually read before they get bored of my posts...



this shirt is its very own optical illusion.


:
December 5 – "Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?"

i've been starring at this prompt for the last 2 hours on and off, its now 315 am, its really hot in my room for some reason and its really cold outside, and we dont run the heater or ac.... so it should be cold because my room is attached to the attic. But it is not. it is really hot. off the side note and onto the prompt.

i was given up on and gave up on this year. relationship wise that is. BUT the past is the past, and even though everyone dwells on the past now and then, and it can not be changed. both were good moves. looking back on the fours years i spent with the first give up wasnt all a waste of time... but looking back the majority of it was. after the first year it moot i'd have to say...

So it was a really good snap back to reality. things like that just cant... scratch that, shouldnt exists in the world.

And then there was MnotT... Thank your higher power that i decided my schooling was MUCH more important then that... seeing the true colors of people you think you know can be a real shell shock...

But both things are behind me now, and they can both kiss my ass when back there too.. So fortunately i only hold anger/dislike for short periods of time before i'm done with them completely..

I was done with LP around the end June, then he found his way back into my life.. but i wasnt angry with him anymore.

I was done with MnotT promptly 3 days after i broke up with him. well i decided i wasnt going to try to date him anymore. Then He Pulled the weekend with WhiteMM, and now i'm done with him completely. and he isnt finding a way back in.. SO if you ever come across this MnotT since i'm not text/emailing/writing you OR telling you in person or over the phone, i dont want you to contact me ever again. if you do try to contact me you will be ignored. and as for your mom, unfortunately for her by what you have done has flipped sides from over a month ago and you have permanently damaged the friendship your mom was trying to have with me again, and for good.. But i think i will be decent enough to let her know that you fuxed it up and not her.

tomorrow/today (Wednesday the 15th) i have to make two lists. list number one is of the things i canNOT forget while i'm packing this weekend for my trip to Connecticut. list number two is the things from most important to "would be cool" that i would like to do while out in Connecticut.. (since i've been told to plan for at least a day at most a weekend in New York).. I should try and have these lists done by 5... so with the now time i have 12 hours to do this in. :)


I'm not even tired, but i guess i must go to sleep and get a head start on my packing. this way it lessens my chance of forgetting.... hopefully.. Hopefully i pay attention to the things i use daily so i know to pack them the night before.

how dare you...

Oh girly crush, why do you present yourself at the worst possible time?

What are you thinking!?

it amazes me how fast i can go from my "im 21" state of mind to "ooohhh he is cute/nice/funny/(other words of nice-ness)" from I'm going to act my age because i'm in college to how tween act around their crushes. I thought this crush would be over by now, as i havent seen said person in 5-7 days... unfortunately for me we're friends on facebook, so i cyber-stalked all of his pictures. i have to stop myself from being that annoying person that you're not really firends with but they comment on all of your pictures, or like them all. it is really hard... But this is not somethign i want to think about right now.. its not like i have anything better to do for the next month... but I'm not going to the same school as him next semester, so there isnt even a point in bringing it up to him or telling anyone who it is.....



Even if we did go to the same school, we didnt really talk during class. So just because i have a lame-o highschool crush on him doesnt mean anything would come of it, or that it would last.

next point..
I really wish i didnt have such a negative attitude towards relationships... i think if i had more faith in them working i wouldnt ruin the ones i go into.
So even if said crush knew i wouldnt date him, because we'd be better friends then bf/gf.

But this crush,....... grrrr its driving me crazy.



Why, oh why, did i start acknowledging this crush NOW and not while i could have talked to him during our classes together.

getting things done!

Today was a good day for getting a lot done!!

I feel very accomplished today.

I had 2 finals today, and was done by 1pm; so now i'm done with this semester.
after that i went home, and my dad was already home waiting for me. he took off half the day so that we could go down to the Texas A&M San Antonio campus to Register :s we got there when they started at 2. and i talked to an adviser... i really dislike advisers for no reason. I really wish they would just tell us which classes to take in which semesters and all we had to do was pick the classes. This way i wouldnt have run into the problem of "oooh i wanna take this class" "this class not found, try again next semester" "grrrrrrr...." that happened to the whole first schedule i wanted to take. then i had to do it again (i HATE making my class schedule). the second time two of the classes i wanted were closed, so yet again back to the classes and schedule.... FINALLY i got classes that i need to take, but didnt want to take this semester...
two English classes, and two psychology classes. all on T/R 12:30 - 7 back to back.

I do need to get an updated transcript from SFA though, cuz the only one i have is opened and they dont take opened ones, and the most current one is Sp of 08, and i attended there Fa 09, so they are missing a semester. i also have this coming up summer booked (at least the first half) two take my final two language classes. French 2 and something else of "language" 1 so i can get the 12 hours out of the way.

NEXT
after we came back home it was about 4ish. i sat at home and did nothing, because i had nothing to do. I waited for my mom to get home so that my sister, mom and i could go out and about the town.
we went to hobby lobby, they didnt have what we were looking for.
we went to anna's linen and things, they didnt have what we were looking for.. but we did end up buying Dommo a Christmas gift.
we went to Target, and got scarfs, hats, gloves, and ear covers. each of these things are on my check list to take to Connecticut. we also got these things for my sister and Dommo. My mom got 2 dress shirts, and some nice pants for my dads company Christmas party today (Friday the 10th).
Then we went to Wal*Mart and still didnt find what we were looking for at Hobby Lobby, but found a good substitute.


What we were looking for:
Star Wars fabric so that my sister could make Dommo a stocking. We found two kids shirts instead and cut them up.



So Verrrry Accomplished today.
finals over - check
school over - check
A&M reg. - check
Mom's dinner clothes- check
Dommos stocking - check
Other gifts for Dommo- check
Get new carmax- check
and start checking things of my check list for Connecticut - check

Looking for ward to ...

Thursday for so many reasons!

Thursday is my last two finals. and only one if i get my essay turned in by tomorrow. :)

also on Thursday i'm going down to A&M SA with my dad to see if i can register for classes.

and even better then getting classes and next semester straight, its my last day of this semester!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! :D

This semester was FUN. But i'm so ready for it to be over!

In less then 2 weeks i'm on a plane to a COLD place with the chance of snow and i'm staying there for just over 2 weeks. i cant wait.

i'm shaking with antica.................pation!

W2G- dmb455

FUCK YOU MNOTT!

Thank you ever so much by Proving the Very Point i was making in my October 30th "i'm not; but i am" blog. (linked if you need a refresher)

"because they were brought up in an environment were "this action" was acceptable so to them it is."

Flashback-
Lunch on Saturday, WhiteMM wanted to go to lunch with MnotT and I, but he didn't want me to be there. Why? because he is still butt hurt that i broke up with him, and mostly because of that blog post, basically saying that i wouldnt date him again. he Intentionally was an asswipe to me. that doesnt hurt my feelings, just so you know it only makes you look like an asswipe.

Today--I'm going to say i dont care about you, and i dont, in any sort of happy feeling way. I do not have good feelings, but do have feelings towards you. I despise you. You are seriously Fucking pissing me off with your 12 year old games. I take back all my "sorrys". i dont give a shit that i hurt your feelings, its been over two months, get fucking over it. and by the attitude that you Intentionally showed to me on Saturday i dont care to Ever be your friend again. So Way To Go On Ruining Any Kind Of Friendship You And I Could Have Had!

GOD DAMN YOU!

Unfortunately when this happened i just blew it off, and when i thought about it earlier today, it ruined my day, and its probably going to have me pissed all day tomorrow as well.

so AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!