more class things

had to read a book for my English classed called The Road of Lost Innocence. its a true story about sexual slavery and brothel houses in Cambodia. the author is Somaly Mam. and its her story. how her life is different because of the events and she finally got out. in the last 5 chapters its about how she starts thinking how she can get other girls out of that horrible life, and how she starts up her foundation to help.
i think its a damn good power point that my partner and i had to do on it! and my essay is fabulous!
but we've decided not to present today in class, we're going to go on Wednesday.

today

I have to read a book called The Road of Lost Innocence The true story of a Cambodian Heroine By Somaly Mam by 2pmC today, so i can meet up with my partner, also reading this book, and so we can make a power point to present to the class on Monday. I also have to write an essay on it, due Monday. I'm a good way through it and its really interesting, but i dont like time limits.... it feels so contrasting.. haha

So, so far my day is a little better then yesterday. Super Saiyans mom emailed and texted me this morning saying sorry and the reason she did what she did, she hopes we can still be friends after this.

well off to read the book, if you have read it, let me know how you liked it or not. :)

i thought i was having a good day, i fell for the joke.

i thought i was having a good day, i fell for the joke.

as usual this picture has nothing to do with my blog, but you may ask what it is.. i took this picture at my moms work today, and it is a squirrel skull that some construction workers found earlier this week and just put here... and it hasnt moved since. i thought it was a bug shelling (like when they shed the exoskeleton) but its not.. my mom saw that it was a skull before i did.


This WHOLE thing my come back and bite me in the ass in the next few days.
I'm not sorry for it, because this is my blog and things from MY mind. *at this point in time, i may feel crappy later for saying them*

yesterday i broke up with my boyfriend for a number of reasons, a lot of miscommunication (all my bad) and because i have come to the conclusion that i cant have a "normal" boyfriend while in school because it stresses me out way to much!

Today! I thought i was having a really great day.

it started out with waking up kind of early, which was fine. Going to the store with my mom for items needed in my house, then going to the back so i can put some money over to my savings account for my Vegas trip. After that i went to work with my mom because i was going to go to Sea World with her at noon, to get a wristband to see the free concert there tonight. we got them, yay us, then i had to go back to work with her because we had to go straight to Sea World after she got off, so there was no time to come get me and go there before the concert started. While at work with her i watched 2 movies starring Nicolas Cage, The wicker man 2006, and The Bad Lieutenant: Port of Call - New Orleans 2009. both were interesting movies, and he seems to get the "im crazy/ going crazy" roles or "im the really bad guy that youre really going to hate" roles. he was crazy in the first one, and bad in the second.
after the movies i was going to read a book that i need to finish by monday for sure, buuuut instead read a magazine about that had a story about "The Social Network" which i want to see even if i hate facebook right now. (more on this in a bit)
After i was done reading the magazine it was time to go to the concert. so i packed up nothing that i worked on for the day and got into the car and went onto the concert.

And here is why i hate face book. Before we left my moms work all the way up to the start of the concert.

Last night on facebook i changed my relationship statues to single, and my best friends "like(d)" it. But i had a conversation with each of them about what had happened, and why i broke up with Super Saiyan. They didnt like it because they were HAPPY i broke up with him, they liked it because they SUPPORT me in the decisions that i make!

Super Saiyans mom doesnt know that side of the story, she just sees that they like it. She got pissed at me and posted "* wrote:"There should be a link that says, " does NOT like this", then I would click on it...""

THANK (WHOEVER) that there is NOT a fuxing link like that, because that is one really good fuxing way to make someone feel really crappy about themselves for thinking about themselves FIRST! fastest way to ruin someones self-esteem
Shit i've never felt so bad in my life then when i read that comment.
Then i go and find out the she DELETED ME as a friend!

I told Super Saiyan what was going on, and he said that she shouldnt have acted that way, and that he felt ashamed to be her son at that moment *Super Saiyans mom, if you do end up reading this... its not because of what you did per-say its how you acted while doing it.*

she just went all "protect the son" on me. she turned crazy for a couple of hours. but for her doing this minus my friends supporting me, this misunderstanding could have been avoided in a different way, if Super Saiyan had just talked to his mom about the break up, and let her know that we were going to still try to be friends.

while still being pissed, and hurt. i went through one of my friends posts and found somethings that made me feel better.
http://www.cafepress.com/+im_mad_as_hell_shirt,22008562
i think i would buy one of there shirts just to not be the bigger women, and wear it around her..... But i'm broke so i wont... and i want to be the bigger women. so i'm just going to avoid her at school and in texts for a while. ** Whooo good thing i didnt get that job with her!!!!*

next thing posted (which was actually posted before) was : " There's always going to be some people so intimidated by something amazing and unique or different about you that they will feel compelled by some inadequacy within themselves to try to tear you down. Just say no to bullies."

*everything after this post is in order from postings.*

"One of the hardest lessons to learn in life is that no one looks at or thinks about you even half as much as you think they do, and even if they did, their opinions don't really matter all that much. (That's great when their opinions are ill-informed or stupid; it is perhaps less comforting when their opinions are generally neutral or positive!)"

" Stupid facts I learned from Trivial Pursuit tonight: most healthy people pee 6 times a day, "domesticated" ants live in a formicary, & Kissinger prayed with Nixon during the Watergate scandal."

"Our species is doomed. (Also, if you don't know what a fleshlight is, DO NOT GOOGLE IT. You have been warned.)
http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l9n1izWJ2I1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg"

*and last thing*
"Keep calm and carry on carryin' on, people.
http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l9mwiyKH2X1qzpwi0o1_500.jpg"

cat talk

sometimes i wish cats could talk. because then my cat wouldnt have waited as long as he did to get fed this morning. he gets fed twice a day, potion sized 1/4 of a cup at 7am and 7pm. he usually starts trying to wake someone up at 630/645 am so we dont forget about him. i was doing homework last night and after watched a movie (furry vengeance). i ended up going to sleep around 4am, which was earlier then my dad.. he was reported going to bed around 730 am...

Anyway... went to bed at 4, and my cat was trying to get me up at 645, but instead of hearing his crys of hunger outside of my dreams, i put the crys in my dream&didnt wake up. this went on for a long time.. it seemed as if he gave up after a while went to see if anyone else was awake; no one was, then came back. he finally ended up biting me at 8am, i was going to tell him to go back to sleep cuz i thought it was 630ish am. i looked at the time, said sorry then fed him.

all of that could have been avoided if he could speak.

for tomorrow i just have

for tomorrow i just have to finish up my homework and remember to give the two cats thier flea&tick prevention meds. thats fun!

today/yesterday (9-18)

today was a very productive day! i woke up at 10ish. my mom, sister, dom, and ovenmit ross took on the task of mowning our neighbors yard and got it done in about an hour and a half.

next we got a bunch of miata parts into my moms car and we meet up with a guy that wanted to buy them. we sold him the seat belts and all of carpet parts.

after we went to walmart and saw this cool container holding thing which got us started on a project of cleaning out one of our floor cupboards. i wish i thought of a before so i can have the after picture actually matter *to be posted later* but i didnt.. but now there is sooooo much room! and it looks really nice.

since we were on a clean up kick, we decided to clean out the pantrey(sp). again w/the be4 pic, none; after picture to be posted later. but now that looks super good and we can actually find things! .. that was all we got to, but we did think of one more thing we need to clean out. I'll be sure to get a be4 of that one, be4 we work onit

school continued

ballroom dancing is fun so far. the day i requested if we could pick permenate partners, i was asked by someone else if i would mind trading... haha. well the guy that i wanted to be permed with didnt show up the next day so i switched... but its fine cuz we didnt actually pick perm partners yet....

next yep. the last class i have is actually the first class and the only class on monday/wednesdays. and its english. my teacher as said before finds sexual things in non-sexual context.... i think she maybe hang out with dr. don too much.. hahahaha

homework... homework is interesting cuz i dont ever have 'too much' to do.. but at the same time i do cuz i have to read chapters of books every night.. and on the nights i want to prcrastinate i have to make up for it by reading more on the next day or the weekends. :)

update on classes

so school.... school is fun. i'm actually liking this semester of classes! its a first in ..... about 3 semesters.
my human sexuality class is really interesting. it is a psyc class and it has got to be hands down my favorite class. and its right in the morning, first class of the day! :) so my day really cant be all that bad after it.. but sometimes it is with my cant-fail class be next in line.

i say cant fail becuase we dont have a final in the class and we dont have any tests.. we have group quizes randomly (which is where anyone in the class can answer the questions right and everyone gets the grade. we also have group essays that we write in class on a prompt. 4 people in a group with the essays... so that one is 'harder' cuz there are only 4 people and not the whole class.

after the horrible phil class, there is another psyc class with dr. don. so my day goes back to being okay again.

after that i have a break for 75 minutes, then i go to ballroom dancing. :)

big message small circle.

i didnt even see the message until after i had already cooked the iten i wanted to eat... becuase i read the.. oh wait for it.... directions! what a concept! .... they only put stupid things like this on anything becuase some stupid person has done it.... way to go stupid people of the world... you keep the rest intertained and ahead of the game (i'm not saying i'm perfect... but i've never seen this here before so it must be a recent thing.. or i've just never fliped it over to reveal(sp) this message?

my hair

i do have different layers and colors in my hair.. no i didnt dye it this way.. it just is this way. i've had a few people tell me in the last few weeks but i didnt really notice it fully.. i just knew. ;)

contact cut off

last night i took my contacts out, and thought i got it into the holder.. but it turnes out that i only got a litter section into the holder, and the theards(sp) of the screw cap cut off the top part of the contact.. so i had to change the one contact.. haha. it sucked.

i watched the movie piranha last night. and it was stupid as i thought it'd be. but it was itneresting as well with the concept that they had of how they got into the victoria lake, it was also just 'convenent(sp)' at the time period it happened in.. and towards the middle to the end there was a lot of "blood" and chaos. and at the end when the main people are saved the mother gets contacted saying they have a shit ton more problems then they thought cuz all of the thousands of piranhas are the babies. so it ends with "so if these are the babies, where are the parents?" and the guy who says it gets killed by a huge piranha that jumps out of the water and eats him almost whole. it was more of a suspence which would make most junpy.. so if your easily jumppy, or cant look at fake blood dont watch it. but if youre okay with that and want to waste time go watch it (not in 3d, cuz 3d is gay)

my cat.... *sigh*

i just walked into the kitchen to get something for the lunch i'm making tomorrow. with all lights off i hear a noise and something is on the floor in the kitchen.. so i turn on the light hoping its not a huge radio-active cockroach eating my cat. its not. its my cat eating the cornbread from a few nights ago. he sees me and gets out of the kitchen as soon as possible. then fishtails comes back in and meows as if he's saying

"woah! what happened here??"

with *drum roll please* CORNBREAD ON HIS FACE! he didnt even think about cleaning it off... most people would say cats dont think and that they are really dumb.. but they understand whatever language they are around. so i'm sure they understand when they do something "wrong" or at least i'd like to think cats think and understand how to cover up what they do wrong.. they arnt that dumb. :) he was smart enough to do it when he thought everyone was asleep.. and maybe thought he could blame it on War or Tigger in the morning.
night peeps

roll over bar

so everything else was put back in, "seats" carpets (all 4 pieces), the top, seatbelts, kick panels, side panels, nuts, blots, and screws, even the support bar. we put it all back in cuz we wanted it out of the house, its suppose to rain for the rest of the week and we didnt want rain in the car, and cuz we didnt think we were going to get a roll bar until my dads next paycheck (those range from 285(crappy) to 425(great) PLUS shipping.. BUT while taking a break after getting the drivers seat in my dad checked criagslist for miata parts and someone posted today a roll over bar (the great one) for 250 dollars. NEVER BEEN USED OR INSTALLED in a car, bought and never used. BEST PART in the city we live in. 30 minutes away (on the other side of town). so yay. bad part.. now we have to get everything taken out modify some more things for a forced fit and put it in hopefully tomorrow before the
rain. sooner then i thought i'll be learning how to drive my car. I'll post the picture later today.

September 4th

we took my car apart yesterday, and put the dash and floor carpeting back in. it took a while to get everything out.. the longest time on getting the dash out. i got dirt and grease under my nails and up my arms and my dad got sunburnt. :s
we had to cut a section out of the newer old dash to get a force fit into my car.

backing up;
we were trading out a black interior of a 95 miata with a tan interior of a 99 miata, and they changed some things with the two models and placements of things.

so force fitting came into the picture, meaning i got to use a hand saw to cut out notches in the plastic dash; my dad followed up with a file (not a nail file, a metal one) to smooth the lines.

my sister and mom undid the stitching of the new top to redo it, which we're thankful for cuz thats less money at this point to fix it. the only thing left is a patch job on a slight cut which we have to do before the rain comes tomorrow, or all is for naught.

This is my Blog

Its time to take it back! I'll take the consequences as they come.
over the past few months i have been trying to be cautious about what i put up here... for no reason.
I guess subconsciously i have a reason, but its not important enough to bring up what or why.

My dad always said, jokingly, that i was the kid that was going to need therapy.. and no joke here, in my 21st year of life, i'm sitting in a therapists room every two or three weeks for the last two months.

I've been meaning to post things as they happen, but i've either forgotten or i didnt have my words as i wanted (and then forgot about them altogether) or i got caught up in doing something else and hadnt been able to come back to this.

Last week (Aug 23rd-27th):
Was my first week of classes. so getting back into the swing of things wasnt too bad, but having a new boyfriend in the mix was a whole different thing to deal with all on its own.
I still cant drive, so getting to school is no problem but getting home from school i have to rely on someone, either my sister, my mom, or Super Saiyan. for some reason i always feel incompetent when i need a ride home.. i wish people didnt have to "learn" how to drive, I wish we all just knew... because i HAVE the "skills" to drive, i just have an irrational fear of driving....
SO when Super Saiyan picks me up we go back to my house cuz all my books are at my house (thus leading to spending so little time at his house now) and he ends up wanting to stay and "hang out" .. which is fine.. but if i have a shit ton of homework to day... i dont really want him there because i wont do my work, cuz i dont want him to be sitting.... bored .... while i do boring homework, that i'm getting mad at and talking to myself over... but i dont want to be a bitch and tell him to leave.. so i sit with him, doing nothing worrying about if i can get all this work done by my time line that night after he leaves or if i'm going to have to rush some things the next day after school (and maybe after he leaves again) before its due the day after that.
while sitting there.... doing nothing, he asks what i want to do, and i respond nothing... cuz i want to do my homework, and not waste time wasting time... but again i cant do it if he's there and i dont want to tell him to leave.

My English teacher for world lit is...:
strange?---not so much for an English teacher
crazy?-----a little bit but thats because of her age (shes in her 70s)
Sexual???--yes!! she had us read a poem, and then asked us what we saw from it... and we named the very obvious to semi obvious things and a few not really obvious at all things... But NO ONE named anything sexual... then she starts referring "this and that" to "that and this" and it became a VERY dirty poem in the first 4 lines.

My human sexuality and Intro to psychology teacher are the same person and he is so amazing! he keeps the class alive the whole class period which is what is needed for an early morning and lunch time hour classes.
but the class i have between the two psyc classes is philosophy and this DI-NO-SA(ER) of an OL-D_M-AN is SOOOOOOO boring! It is reallllllly incredible hard for me to pay attention to him.

after those three classes i have a break for an hour and fifteen minutes before Ballroom dancing starts. so far ballroom is fun.. we've learned the three steps to the Waltz and the first eight counts of the dance. YAY.


This is going to be broken down into more sections because i have more to say.. but I'm tired now.
so until next time. :)

real reason

the real reason i cant do my homework is because War hides under my papers and plays with my pencils... hahahaha
sorry for any laughs or loud noises.

school

first week of school...

it went..... okay.

i hope to update later about some of the crazy things that happened... but i dont have time right now.. i thought i did and then i was volunteered to do something.. so i'll have to get back to this.

DANG! two cars in front of us there was a truck. one car in front of us was a barbie cut out blond. we get to a stop light and the guy in the truck gets out goes up to the barbie cut out and starts yelling out her. he yelled "your texting!? youre going to kill somebody! you were driving all over the road! put your phone down! put it down now! quit texting!"

then when the light turned green barbie cut out didnt move until truck guy was far a head of her.. and she didnt even go the same way truck guy did, he went straight and she turned... we turned also.. so we sped up to get ahead of her.

after War comes Famine. or is it because of Famine comes War?

random video of my cats. War(orange/red) and Famine(black/brown).
War was chirping out his reflection, but of course stopped when i wanted to film it..... of course.