Its time to take it back! I'll take the consequences as they come.
over the past few months i have been trying to be cautious about what i put up here... for no reason.
I guess subconsciously i have a reason, but its not important enough to bring up what or why.
My dad always said, jokingly, that i was the kid that was going to need therapy.. and no joke here, in my 21st year of life, i'm sitting in a therapists room every two or three weeks for the last two months.
I've been meaning to post things as they happen, but i've either forgotten or i didnt have my words as i wanted (and then forgot about them altogether) or i got caught up in doing something else and hadnt been able to come back to this.
Last week (Aug 23rd-27th):
Was my first week of classes. so getting back into the swing of things wasnt too bad, but having a new boyfriend in the mix was a whole different thing to deal with all on its own.
I still cant drive, so getting to school is no problem but getting home from school i have to rely on someone, either my sister, my mom, or Super Saiyan. for some reason i always feel incompetent when i need a ride home.. i wish people didnt have to "learn" how to drive, I wish we all just knew... because i HAVE the "skills" to drive, i just have an irrational fear of driving....
SO when Super Saiyan picks me up we go back to my house cuz all my books are at my house (thus leading to spending so little time at his house now) and he ends up wanting to stay and "hang out" .. which is fine.. but if i have a shit ton of homework to day... i dont really want him there because i wont do my work, cuz i dont want him to be sitting.... bored .... while i do boring homework, that i'm getting mad at and talking to myself over... but i dont want to be a bitch and tell him to leave.. so i sit with him, doing nothing worrying about if i can get all this work done by my time line that night after he leaves or if i'm going to have to rush some things the next day after school (and maybe after he leaves again) before its due the day after that.
while sitting there.... doing nothing, he asks what i want to do, and i respond nothing... cuz i want to do my homework, and not waste time wasting time... but again i cant do it if he's there and i dont want to tell him to leave.
My English teacher for world lit is...:
strange?---not so much for an English teacher
crazy?-----a little bit but thats because of her age (shes in her 70s)
Sexual???--yes!! she had us read a poem, and then asked us what we saw from it... and we named the very obvious to semi obvious things and a few not really obvious at all things... But NO ONE named anything sexual... then she starts referring "this and that" to "that and this" and it became a VERY dirty poem in the first 4 lines.
My human sexuality and Intro to psychology teacher are the same person and he is so amazing! he keeps the class alive the whole class period which is what is needed for an early morning and lunch time hour classes.
but the class i have between the two psyc classes is philosophy and this DI-NO-SA(ER) of an OL-D_M-AN is SOOOOOOO boring! It is reallllllly incredible hard for me to pay attention to him.
after those three classes i have a break for an hour and fifteen minutes before Ballroom dancing starts. so far ballroom is fun.. we've learned the three steps to the Waltz and the first eight counts of the dance. YAY.
This is going to be broken down into more sections because i have more to say.. but I'm tired now.
so until next time. :)
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