There’s a project, reverb

There’s a project, reverb, that provides daily prompts for people to blog about in the hopes of reflecting on the year 2010. I found this on BluestEyes blog, and the link to the project is in the title.



As i was reading BluestEyes' answer to this following question, i had an answer, just as she did when she read the answer of another.

The question: Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?

Tornado. This was the first answer that came in my head.
This year was beautiful, dark, powerful, destructive and somewhat boring.

it started out good. the new year always does, for me. its the best time of the year to clean your slate and start anew. this good feeling lasted about 3 months. as my job was winding down and getting read yo close shop, i ran into a shit storm.

*Insert Break-Up Scene Here* the only thing i thought i had going for me was Destroyed in seconds. it felt great (note the sarcasm) for about 3 weeks, then i was pissed and tired of being mad, sad, and tired. So i stopped caring. This is about the time it got dark. when i stopped caring about what had happen to me, i unintentionally stopped caring about everything going on around me too.

and i made a blog. :) i would have to say if you want to tell everyone you dont know about the things you want to tell someone, post it in a blog. and every time something happens, and you dont know exactly how to say it, or you just want to rant, post it in a blog. when you think you've run out of friends that care to hear about the same thing over and over and over again, because it still bothers you, Post It In A Blog! The blog doesnt care, but that doesnt matter because you care, and if you have people that read it, they dont need to care... at least someone else is reading your rant which was the point to begin with.

Then it got powerful... i basically paid it forward. I listened to two of my friends about their relationships, and all they seemed to do was complain about it.. i never make the decision, but i just talk to people about whatever they want to talk about.. I am always on the side of my friend, even if it tends to be the wrong side. I voice what i'm thinking about it, and tend to be quite blunt without care or feeling, and help them make powerful choices that will change the next few month to rest of their lives.
WhiteMM and MnotT both broke up with the partner at that time for one reason or another.
i wanted both partners out of the lives of my friends, but i never push it or make the decision. so if they wanted to stay with those people i would have just questioned it, and dealt with it.
WhiteMM is much happier for it, and i dont know about MnotT. he might not be so happy now.

This is about the time the destructive comes in. I'm a very destructive person. and when it comes to relationships when i want out i dont tell the person that i'm done i try to push them away. i ruin or sabotage it intentionally to see if the person would get the hint that i just dont care anymore. I'm an uncaring person. i have feelings but i dont let enough people see them or get to them for them to be hurt in anyway what-so-ever.
I intentionally dont attach myself to people or call anyone a friend because when they stop talking to me, or we stop hanging out it wont hurt.

This is my own choice, and this will be my downfall when i get older and join the "real world" but i dont care to change right now. So far i've ruined every relationship i've been in except one... And it wasnt the one with LP. and the one that would have been the best thing for me i pushed away because i was scared.

my perfect boyfriend. a guy how puts up with the shit i bring, who makes the relationship interesting at least once a week so i dont get bored and back out, and who doesnt care to see me daily or (current state of mind) want to live with me in the future.

Here is the boring... i dont do anything anymore. i do daily things, but i dont go out with people, i dont try to make friends, all i do it go to school and go home. so there isnt much to goo off of when people ask how my week or weekend went... my response is "it went.. i didnt do anything note worthy"

THE NEW YEAR:
I would like it to be like a beach.
gritty and dirty sometimes, but nice and beautiful and Clean most of the year.




Now on to the random things...

I think i'm getting better at driving, i have only driven from the mail box to the house which is about 1/4 of a mile or so with the speed limit of 20 mph.

i had a wired non-sexually hot dream the other night... it is to strange to talk about. but i sort of told the person that was in the dream what the outline of the dream was. they were "flattered"

all but one final is this week, when "finals" are next week. I have one "final" next week but its not really a final, its just a presentation of our sex research.

My dance is on Saturday night (dec 4th) and we have it all, we just have to pretend to know what were doing even if we dont. its going to be so much fun! Yay dance class!



And last thing, when i started this blog i first told my 4 (at the time) best friends, now its only 2 1/2, and all of them had their own excuse not to read it. then i told others. LP was still reading it when i told a few more people about it, and i didnt much care for him to, but had no way of stopping him so i just gave up on it. but the people that are suppose to "be there" for me dont read, which kind of hurts the feelings that not many get to see. it didnt bother me at first, but i go into much more detail when i blog about something then i ever do or ever will when i retell the story over and over again to each friend. i start out with "have you read my recent update?" and the answers i get back are "no, blogs are boring to me", "no, lol, i forgot. what is the address thingy [URL] again?", or Oh, my favorite "nope, dont care to"

i know of 3 people for sure that read my blog, and i've come to the conclusion that i'm okay with that. My parents (2 people) and reconnected again officially official friend BluestEyes (reconnected as in back in April-ish)


well this is long enough, so i'm cutting it off.

these are all of the colors. 8 girls, 2 of each color.
i'll try to get a picture of all of us in the between now and december 5th... cuz our dance is the 4th as mentioned before. we're going to be bright!

my computer did what?!?

well our printer has been going on the crap-out for the last month ish... every so often it works, most of the time it doesnt. But that isnt a major issue unless i need to print something out one morning and that happens to be the day it is going on the crap-out.

Which then i have to go to up the school in a rush, usually forget something, and print it out at school.. this wouldnt be a problem either but our school charges for printings now.... SO SUPER LAME! this happened this morning. i went the lab that has free printing, but it was full of students, i guess there was a class going on... So i had to print it out at the library, which i ran into MnotT's mom.... i have been trying to avoid her, but this time i couldnt. bleh.

Either way, i kept my answers short sweet and to the point. i printed out my 9 page paper which cost me .90 cents so that isnt that bad, but it is still lame! we pay a hefty library fee, why isnt the money actually being used for the library, to keep the printing free?! stupid lame way of trying to get EVEN more money out of us at a Community College! 16,000 people go to this school, just up the library fee another 5 bucks and that is a shit-ton of money that could be used to keep printing free.

i also had to check out a book for my phil class. that i have to make notes on. So that what i'll be doing for my break. make note on two book, on is the assigned book, and the other is an outside reading, writing 3 essays, doing two journal logs, and practicing my dance. a lot to do in 5 days.


On to what my computer did:

I plug in a card reader, and my computer refused to read it. i plugged the card reader into every USB drive i have and it just say "generic drive plugged into [this] port"
YES i know that!..... i want to get the information off of it! so read the damn drive!
lame!
I've been having a great day. :D (very sarcastic)

fast foward now to last week

i went to an advising talk during my class break. and i listened to a&m san antonio's talk.. after the talk i asked the adviser how many credits max do they usually talk from transfer students? the adviser said that a&m sa, with little exception they take 88 hours in transfer credits..... YAY me! i have 95 after this semester.. so that was a major shock. i thought i had at least another semester before i had to decide to leave Vista and go to another school.. but NO. life decided for me that it wanted to speed things up faster then what i wanted it to... and now i have to learn to drive, apply to school, get accepted, transfer financial aid, register for classes and learn how to get to the campus and back all by jan 17th ish. omg! aaaaaaahhhhhh

and two weeks ago we decided on these skirts for my dance class, and i ordered them last week after everyone paid me for them, and they came in today. so i'm taking them to class tomorrow to make sure they all fit everyone else. and if they dont i have to return them and hopefully get the new ones in before next Thursday, which is the 2nd of dec... because our final dance in on the 4th of December.

my dad did what?

he hit the jeep.. but its okay it gives my car some personality.. and a bit of pay back cuz when the jeep was his i hit a pole and tree. that dent is a permanent one... this one can eventually be fixed.

oh boy, oh boy, oh boy!

not in the good way....

So thanksgiving break is coming up next week, but i dont keep track of time and somehow thought that it was this week, WHOOPS! but whatever.
That just mean i actually have more time then i thought i did to get my English research paper done. :) yay for my lack of judging time skills?

This week i dont have a ride home for two days, Tuesday and Wednesday. Which means i get to stay up at the school for 2 more extra hours both days waiting for someone to come get both Dom and i. there a few people i could try to ask, but i'd rather not for a number of reasons on both.. So i'll just wait for when my mom or sister to come get Dom and go home with her. This gives me time to do my psyc essays that are due this week and next week (two psyc classes, two different essays). :) yay for lack of knowing how to technically drive?

next on the list is i've started going to bed earlier, which is good.. but has no real point other then i'm not as tired as i have been the past few weeks... and definitely less stressed out.

i got a cat door, which is super cool!!
my dad installed it this past weekend, i helped best i could. It is an automatic door, that opens when a magnetic collar tag that the cats wear comes close to it. It took Famine only a day to get use to "this is how its going to be, might as well use it" and War... doesnt like it. it scares him.. so my cat has a place to hid from the dog and other cat when he just wants to sleep. which is cool!! and i can close my door and LOCK it when i want no one in my room.... the reason i got the lock 3 years ago but havent been able to use for the past 2 because of Famine.

AND it keeps the DOG out of my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which i love, cuz now he cant destroy stuff, take my trash out of the trash can or Shit on my carpet!

i just love my sisters UNtrained dog... Oh so much! .. (Sarcasm)


I went to a Rick Springfield concert with my mom, and if you're friends with my on facebook, i'll have those pictures posted this week, probably Friday, even though it was last week..... Oh wells.

And my parents had their 23rd wedding anniversary this past Sunday so the family (minus my sister (working) and plus Dom went to Benihana's. It was AWESOME dark pictures of that to come as well)

other then that i think i have everything updated from the last two blogs, and everything that i wanted to mention, mentioned in this one... until next month... just kidding, until next time have fun?

movie review.

misspelling=super tired
this review will be on the movie 8mm.

i dont recommend for weak stomach.

it could be a scary movie, but not in a bloody, gory way.. but more of in a mind screw way... cuz the main idea of the movie is something so horrible, yet so terrible possible. something that only a select handful of people, with a certain kind of mind would do.

its about snuff films. films that are an 'urban myth' because one hasnt surfaced anywhere. no one that has claimed to have one can proved the copy when asked for it.

they are films that take a person & film them like porn, but while having sex kill the person kept filming & once theyre dead finish the sex & dispose of the body. as i said no one is going to admit to making them or having them cuz of the murdering aspect. but its mind screwing, cuz someone in this world could make it & someone will buy it. so cuz it is so possible its terrifying. it also has nicolas cage starring.
he is the good guy in this movie (related to a past blog of mine where i reviewed other movies he was in.)

dance class.

so in my dance class we have two tall guys. one is 6'4" the other is 6'6". i've been paired up for random across the floor exercises in the past cuz i'm the tallest girl standing at a whooping 5'(<)6" but close enough to be 5'6". in tusedays class, no body wanted to willingly be my partner, so i had to wait for a guy to come back around to get me (8 girls, 6 guys). well 6'6" came back. we did sha-na's(sp?) which are really fast spins that the girls do and the guy holds her hand and guides so she doesnt fall or run into someone. we have to do it going right, then collect ourselves and go left. *i'll have to explain this later so check back hopefully tomorrow*

Okay i know its WAY later the last week but the update is:
they hold our hand with the same hand (so right hand with right hand, facing forward but going to your right) then you get onto your tip-toes and do really fast tight spins while spotting (looking at the same spot when you turn so you dont get dizzy--which i cant do). And when you stop, if you're bad at spotting like me, you have to get un-dizzy (collecting yourself) then go left doing the same things with the left hands, and a new spot on the other side of where your going (the place you started from)

SORT of like this but with a guy holding your hand and going in a direction to the other side of the room:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSl6kt320Bg (ALSO in the title)

i did great on going right (i'm better at most dance moves going right). on the going left i was getting into position, and 6'6" said "dang your tall"... compared to all the other girls but one in the class i'm the tallest. the one taller then me is 5'11" ish. i said "&ure not?& thanks" back. then i did the turns, & about fell...

problem!

I always have things that I’m thinking about posting on, and then I have other things that are higher on my priory list, and completely forget about that things I want to blog on when I get back to remembering "oh I had a blog about......... shiz what was I going to say!!!"

Anyways I’m going to try to remember to do this at least once a week; my favorite song of the week.

This week is
Fairytale by Sara Bareilles. I think its "moral" is a sad but a bitter truth of not everything is happy ever after... even the happy ever after people have a crappy life. haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud0cgprjQYU *link also in the title*


So school!!:
I turned in a paper today for my English class, and the teacher gave it back to my at the end of the class graded. I got a B, but it turned into a C because I had run on sentences... and it was a re-do, she didn’t even grade the paper the first time around she looked at the first 2 lines or so and rejected it. told me to do it over. haha. so because it was a re-do I got a grade lower for turning it in "late" whatever. :)

I ended up dropping one group in my intro to psych class and picked up a different group. the reasons you may not be asking yourself?? The original group still didn’t have an idea on what they were going to be doing for the final project. and I picked up an a group that is trying to educate teenagers about the teen pregnancy and how hard it can be and such... two of the group members were teen mothers, so we have 3 sides, teen mothers, not teen mothers but saw it in high school, and a guys perspective on how the guy would have to deal with the child support and whatever else would come up (but he is not a teen father)

in my other psych class, we have half of the project done, and we have to think of 4 new questions and survey people on them for the other half. sounds easy enough.. now we just have to get the questions approved. But first we must actually think of the questions.. haha :)

my Phil class still sucks. I have to read some 160 pages that a famously dead philosopher wrote (not one about him, one that he wrote) for the final. we have an essay test tomorrow, which I still hate these lame-o testing way, but whatever gets me the damn A to never take this class again... !!!

and in my dance class we actually have the whole dance laid out! we know every step and we know every step in order.. Now we just have to practice it over and over and over and over and over And over ANd over AND over AND Over AND OVer AND OVEr AND OVER AND OVER for the next 3 weeks. :) Oh and keep up with the music, and not forget anything in the dance, and hopefully she doesn’t change or take anything else out or add anything else to it. :)


and we should be able to get it. haha YAY us.

That’s about it for the last few weeks of updates.


Just Kidding!

We had this cool Psychology day Nov 2nd, and for extra credit we had to go around to 7 or more of the booths and find out what they were doing and get someone to sign off on a paper. One of the booths was "which on has sugar" you got three small random samples of coke-cola, diet coke, or coke zero. you could get all three of one, or two or one and one of another or any combination of the sorts.

I got my three samples, they didn’t tell you which ones you had until you said which ones had sugar on this piece of paper you got handed. the first one was the nastiest thing I have had in a long time, thus I knew it was coke-cola, thus it has sugar in it. the other two samples were good so they were either diet coke or coke zero. it didn’t ask us which ones we thought we had, just which had sugar. I was sure I had coke-cola, coke zero, and coke zero... and BAM! I know my sodas! I gave the paper back to the lady, and she looked at it, looked at me, looked at the one pouring the sodas behind a huge poster board, and gave it to her teacher. then pointed at the combo they gave me. The teacher looked at me and said that only one of 4 people get it right, and I got it right. :) cuz I’m a genius... :p

now I’m done. :) off to finish up some work due.... tomorrow. :)

lightening to hail in 15 minutes

it started to lightening outside, then it start thundering. this went on for about 15 minutes. then it start raining so hard it sound like the wind and rain were going to shatter glass. but that wasnt to worse part. it then started to hail huge pieces of ice. how horrible... it was loud and angry! with no mercy in sight. looking online the weather band is all the way across texas and heading our way.. this is just the start of the storm... the hail has stopped for now, but may pick up again. this is going to be a fun night.

LOOK!! I see you

i went to PostSecrets, as i do every sunday or tuseday depending on when i remember, and when i go, after i read what is up i look at if i know anyone in the pictures that are the friends for that cycle.
And i saw one i know this week.

Yay! :)

i'm not; but i am

i'm not avoiding you.... but i kind of am.

This whole thing may be confusing, deal with it.. hahaha. :)

Relationship directed

a wise person once told me "if something in their family scares you, run like hell" because if you choose to spend your life, married or unmarried, to someone have have a life together maybe even a family, look at their family. the reason for looking at their family is because once you are dedicated to this person some things that are present in their family life may be brought into yours. so if something happens/occurs when with or around their family, back the hell out of that relationship.

the significant other is going to tell you "i'm not like that, its only my family member" that doesnt mean shit! because they were brought up in an environment were "this action" was acceptable so to them it is.




with all this said. thanks but no thanks. i'll stay single.

now to be more specific... MnotT this is about you-ish.
stay single as long as you want or dont want to, dont wait for me i'm not coming back. i'm sorry that you fell IN love with me and i hope that you can eventually get over me. not meant to be taken in a mean way, more of a straight forward way because those feelings will never be returned under any circumstances. I truly am sorry that it had to come to that on her part to ruin anything we could have had in the future. But i'm always going to be thinking about what is best for my future, and people of interest that snap like that because they interpreted something wrong arnt people i want in my life.
i forgave her, but for her actions. i will not punish you for them because that is not fair, but i will not subject a future life to that. if our relationship ever went -flash forward 10 or 15 years from now- to kids i wouldn't want her to be around my children because of how easily she can turn on someone.

I'll still be friends with her, but she doesnt seem so interested anymore, or she just doesnt know what to say or how to say it... because we dont talk anymore, and i dont go to the library for my lunch because i have nothing to say back.

i wanted to take time away from you and your family because i wanted all of you to not have my presences around. i'll accept that she was jut mad at me and mis-understood, but i wont understand why she felt she needed to say the things she did.
in an email she sent "We both finally agree, unanimously, that you are the perfect girl for (MnotT)" they cant decided for you who is perfect and who isnt. all they can do is input that they like me or not, everything else is up to the relationship.
it does suck that she liked me so much and you thought i was your one, but i tried to tell you over and over that i'm not a good person to be in a relationship with. i'm damn sure i told you not to fall in love with me as well. but we cant undo what is done, we can only move on.

and it does suck that our friendship, if thats what it still is, has been effected by what she did. but shit happens, and life goes on.




IN OTHER NEWS:
i had something to say here, but i forgot what it was while typing up everything in this blog... i should really write things down before i start blogs to remember to get back to certain points.


AND i do need to get better at typing in connective ways. like this blog in confusing then it jumps around when it is direct which makes it still confusing to people who dont live in my head... I'm trying... i hope it has gotten better from my first long blog, to now and not worse...
maybe its just random on when i want them to be really great, versus when i have something on my mind and write it down as i think about it.

what are we now?

so what are we?
obviously people dont usually go up to people they know and ask "are we friends" because its usually a given in high school that "if said person talks to me about everyday, we must be some kind of friend" but then after high school you really start to understand what "friend" is and redefine yourself and your definition of friends and who your 'true' friends are... then it just gets more complicated in college. after college things should be all straightened out again.

BUT we've done the high school thing, we dont talk to the people who arnt our friends from high school. we're doing the college thing now and making new friends and dropping more high school ones and some old college ones and we still talk to each other.

sure we dont talk to each other everyday like high school, but we dont have any classes together; we're not even in the same city for 3/4th of the year. but we still talk, we're still friends on facebook, and we still have some things in common. but what are we now? are we friends, are we acquaintances, or are we just two people with things in common that need someone to talk to during the summer because we live in the same city 15 minutes away from each other?

its a rude-ish question to ask someone because it should be unwritten and just understood... but i'm sure you have at least once thought about asking me the same thing just to see what i think about it... and if you havent then thats just me...... >.>

but what would you call us, if anything. (be brutally fricken honest :), it will NOT hurt my feelings, dont worry)

not so highly anticipated update

I saw x, who will now be LP (if i remember), yesterday and he brought over something that he thought i'd be interested in. 3 old time fashion Barry Manilow RECORDS. they were on "clearance" at some place he stopped by for .93 cents a piece! he asked if i wanted them, i said sure, he dropped them off yesterday and took me to school. my mom saw them this morning and asked if she needed to take the record player out of the attic. ... i didnt know we had one, hahaha, i was willing to try to find a cheap good one to play the over-sized vinyl CDs.
apparently he thinks about me a lot, more then he thinks he should, and wants to try and be friends and such-as...
I dont let people be my friends, i only have about 3 or 4 people that i call "friend" everyone else is just an acquaintance (that way i dont have to keep myself attached to them in anyway, and can stop talking to them or not talk to them for a long time and it doesnt bother me). he said he was fine being that as well.

NEXT
i still have a good number of people that said/say they would help with my collection to try to see barry manilow in Vegas, and have only received 3. technically 4, my dads mom sent me money but she had no idea that she inadvertently(wrong word??) donated to my Vegas fund. the rest just keep saying "i'll help" "i wanna help" "i might send something in late November"
When this plan originally went out i asked that everyone send me what they were going to by JUNE, so that i could to vegan FOR my birthday... getting money the day of or months after doesnt really help me get to Vegas FOR my birthday.
aahh whatever, fortunately for all of them in September i decided to not go in October to Vegas but instead try to go there either in March or June of next year.

SCHOOL
i have two psyc classes, and both had an essay due today, one class changed the due date to next week, and guess what i did!!
I got the classes mixed up and didnt finish the essay that was actually due today, but i did do the one due next week... how lame.
i told the teacher and he laughed at me and is letting me turn it in late.

i have to present a story with a partner in English on Monday and do an essay on that as well. lame-o

and my phil class sucks, we dont do anything in that class.

Last but not least, in my dance class we almost have the whole routine spotted, now we just have to get the timing and MEMORIZE it. she decided that she wanted to put my in front stage so EVERYONE can see me... we have just about 4.5 weeks lift, so 9 classes left to learn the whole thing, and i am getting soooo confused and turning the wrong way and not coming in on my cues and IM IN FRONT.. so i have no one to cover up my mistakes, and no one to look at when i do something wrong to get back on track....

needs an update

so it's been a while since i had a "serious" update to this.

haha

Yesterday was my birthday. turned 21.
had a blast!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=560299&id=631595051
(hopefully this link works)

My family and i went out to Acadiana for lunch, then for after lunch dessert we went to the cheesecake factory where i got the pumpkin cheesecake. and it was sooo good. i want to make one sometime, but i think i may just buy this one.. hahaha.
after food we all went home, cuz my parents wanted to nap before we went out for drinks.

we ended up going to BJs for drinks, mainly cuz it had a TV and my mom wanted to watch the baseball game.

i had a white peach mojito, shot of tequila, a sex on the beach (which i gave me mom cuz i didnt like that much so i traded for her berry delicious). then i had beer samples of the two darkest beers that the restaurant had (a roasted one of some kind and a stout--NASTY), the bartenders laughed at the face of disgust that i made when i drank the stout. then two more beer samples of a harvest hefeweizen, a wheat beer, and Jeremiah red, a strong ale. after that i had a sample of a berry cider (which is a fruity beer and a misnomer), and my mom ended up getting a full glass of it, it was really good. :) i was still drinking the berry delicious drink during all this which was getting more and more watered down and becoming more gross...
i wanted to try a shot of Johnny Walker black label, and my bartender just gave me a sip of it, which was a good idea cuz it was nasty and i made a face with it as well. it also gave me the feeling like it burned my lip so i didnt like it at all.

those are all the drinks i had, i also had about 5 glasses of water and had to get up to pee 6 times.

Going home! we got home and i got up the stairs just Fine, and had to pee again, so i went to the bathroom.... and need help getting off the floor when i was done, cuz i took my pants off and my shoes and went down to pick then up. Dom helped me to my room, i felt the need to inform her after we were in the hallway that i had taken my pants off.... she already knew this, and just said "yep, it is hot up here" hahahahaha

after that i took the trash bag that was in my trashcan into my sisters room to dump my trash into her so i could have a clean empty bag in case i lost my nachos and drinks during the night. I only did this because i Knew that if i didnt have the option i would have thrown up-- but since i gave myself the option i ended up not needing to throw up. :) yay me

What!?

my teach doesnt know that we can see what he is doing, and we're doing a "test" (which is really an essay) and he's playing freecell!!

335 now

this is post 335, before i posted the last post i noticed that i had 333 posts. and i was going to say something about it, but the last post was on October 6th or something close..... so it didnt seem relevant to go back and edit it to say "oh yeah, this is my 333 post

:)

I've been away for oh so long!

I've been away for oh so long!

So many group projects in school.
I hate group projects.

Since last I mentioned anything Super Saiyan and I are still friends I guess.

x posted some stupid ass photo that my freshmen "tagged" me in on facebook, because I’m not friends with anyone else in that picture so no one else could tag me...
But since it was in x's pictures, I un-tagged me, and told my freshmen (who graduated this last year in May-- so not really a freshmen anymore, haha)...
Anyways, I told him that it was someone of a nice thought, but not to tag me in x's pictures. This made me look around at his page because I was wondering what he'd been up to... nothing new in his pictures so nothing new to report on... but I thought for less than a second that I should say Hi and see how things are, but I still have this over powering urge to not want to talk to him.

More so then any other ex-boyfriend I’ve had.
Bunches, Blondie**, and Super Saiyan are the only ex's I’ve talked to after the break up... and I’ve had enough boyfriend..... but just so many don’t think I’m some kind of slut, I’ve only had 15 boyfriends, and I remember all of their names and which order they came in.... and roughly how long we dated before separation happened.

**(for those that know me, this was B...t, the freshmen I dated when I was a junior in high school-- I’ve not talked about him so he didn’t have a name before this post... and he has some Blond hair)

NEXT:

I recently went to a Jonas Brothers concert, followed by a Brett Michael concert (free at Sea World), and followed by a Carrie Underwood concert!!
my mom and I go to a lot of concerts.... but not really a LOT, this year has been the most in a ever... and two of them were free
And the RODEO is coming up again (in February haha) and those concerts are awesome... So is bull riding!! I love bull riding. It makes me hot and heavy! (JUST KIDDING!!)
But I do like it. :)

School time:
I have a group project in all of my classes... well only 4/5 since dance is a group project the whole way through.... since we all have to learn a dance to perform at the end of the semester

For my human sexuality class, one group member dropped the class 2 weeks after we go the group project and told us today 2 days before the first part is due... Way To Go, Dude!! So now the other three people, including me, have one more day to get his part done AND type up an essay due Thursday.


Philosophy.... my Favorite class (HEAVY on the sarcasm!) everything we do in this class in a group grade, group quizzes, AND group IN CLASS essays that have to be grammatically correct, in order, with a outside resource, 3-6 pages long and all done in 75 minutes HANDWRITTEN out...... what kind of loony teacher does that???... And if he can’t read it Points off!! Really????

OKAY I Know that my generation should know how to do this, but we grew up in the age of the computers that did this stuff for you, the last time a teacher requested that they should be able to read my hand writing was in 4th grade, in California. When I moved out to Texas in the 4th grade, they told me that everything needed to be typed out because they were going to try to decipher codes from students anymore.. So after that year I didn’t have any more penmanship classes, I never needed to write clearly or anything... unless of course I wanted to read it later. So it’s complete ludicrous (!!) that this teacher is having us do it this way when we sit in a classroom with 25 computers and a printer available....


In my intro to psyc class we have a group project about "change the world (for the better) and my group was going to try to show people in the community that not all Muslims are bad, just this one group... and if they still dont believe us we were going to point out things that could be consider terroristic in the popular organized religions and ask if they think those groups are terrorist and why or why not.. then go back to why we choose to keep grouping all of the Middle Eastern people and Muslims as ALL being terrorist, making us no better than how we thought about the Japanese when Japan bombed us in Pearl Harbor (except credit to us, we didn’t put them in camps for years)
we got Red Light(ed) for this, and were told to change it or make it more specific to be able to do this in a few weeks and not something that would take a few years, so we changed it to volunteering at Meals on Wheels and getting statistics on how many of the people that show up there are actually homeless, jobless, or they just can’t buy food. But not in a negative way, it would be just to show that anyone can go get food from these groups for a number of reason, they don’t have to be just homeless or penniless.


And the last group project (excluding dance) is in my English class a partner and I have write our own separate papers comparing and contrasting two stories, then we have to present our findings to the class and explain the story the class hasn’t read to everyone in a power point or such.
its sounds easy, and I’m sure it is which is why I’ve had it for about a week and haven’t started on it yet, the papers are due this next Monday and the presentation will start money so I want to have our presentation done by then to go first and get it over with.

And then last is dance we've learned the first 30-60 seconds of our dance now we're working on placement and or entrances and when we meet up with the boys and such... yeah... I may post a video of me attempting the dance.... might...


And last but Not least, I changed my tooth brush and ora brush last night after I used the old ones and used the new ones today and I LOVE new toothbrushes!! They just feel sooo great. :)

just noticed

That two of my posts basically say the same thing. hahaha... oh well.
i'm getting nervous, because i have an hour before i have to present. I know we should do okay because i presented to my parents and Dom and they liked it, and my partner presented to his girlfriend and she liked it. So we have no worries.. I just have to remember what the slides say and the notes and stories behind them to fill in the blanks.

Hopefully we do okay.... :s

national night out last night

my neighborhood had a get together at our park, with a "clown" that did face paintings and balloon thingys.