march 27....

I meant to have posted this way back on march 27th.. but i was using the wrong code to text it in so it didnt send.

My mom and i went and ate at teigos(sp?) and i had some spice chicken enchiladas. they looked good but they tasted ten time better!

(it was really good)


After this we had one of thier speical deserts, which was chocolate cake and cinnamon ice cream. (which is the BEST ice cream ever, i feel really bad for the people allergic to cinnamon)

it took FOR-EV-ER to get out, and my mom made a 'joke' and said "what is taking so long are the freezing your ice cream?" (i wasn't going to eat the nasty chocolate cake(uck), and she cant eat ice cream)
Right after she said that the waitress, as always, brings out the food. and she takes a big forkful of the cake and puts it in her mouth and makes the funniest noise!
So i got back at her saying "No they were heating up your cake!" It was realllly HOT!

Dog / Phone

I just found out that when i was a young kind and we lived in base housing we had a dog named Trouble. And it responded to its name.

But my parents gave it up because some guy my dad worked with wanted a German Shepard, so they just gave it to him. shortly after that he got divorced and got to keep the dog. :)


Also i asked my mom to throw my phone up to me, stupid idea because i can catch... and well i didnt and she missed it by an inch and it hit the floor and came apart and something broke off of it, but its insured (or so she says ... i'm pretty sure we opted out of the insureacnce on it) so we're going to go get it fixed eventually... It wasnt anythign impoartant, because the phone still works fine.

Apirl 4th

Not much happened today.

happy easter to people.. we had dinner about 6.
we made brisket, twice baked potatos, green bean cassirols, and crissont rolls; we also had salad with it. for desert we had red velvet cake.

I still have 4 response papers, 3 worksheets, and 2 essays to do.. And i want to do them before tomorrow.
I have ideas written down one on papers for about 4/5 of them.... I just have to type them..

I only have 12 more days of work, then I should be done until next year.. Unless i want to find another job else where, but I think as this semester goes on, and the summer and my next semester i wont have time for a real job. I'll have to find money doing something else... pooie.

i only have 3 more episodes of Dexter to watch, and i want to finish it but at the same time i dont... But once i do i'm getting out of it. So if it has another season i'm not going to watch it.
I just 'dropped' three other shows that i watch as well because they got really stupid in the last 3-5 episodes.

My sister has 20 days til her 22nd birthday, for some reason she's happy.... I dont see why she should be though its not an 'important' age.
And i have 6 months and 19 days till mine.. I hope i get to do what i want.

I also need about 35,000 dollars.....

Apirl 3rd.

After each breakup i go out and get nice things for myself. :)

So i got some new earrings so i can put away the ones he gave me.
i got a new pendent for my necklace so i can have something with my "love" pendent that didnt come from him.
i got a new bra and its awesome, i think its the best thing to come out in bras since they've been made!

And i cut my hair, it looks great!

My mom got me some polo shirts, and I'm looking into new clothes and better fitting shirts.

I have stopped popping my knuckles, its a bad habit.
I've "cold-turkey" stop cussing.
I had a bad habit of piking hang-nails, stopped that too...
Now all i need to work on is school and getting to bed/waking up at "decent" hours.

still have to learn how fail and keep my nails nice though.

"For Your Entertainment" Adam Lambert & Miss Green

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUR88kesHbw

wow!

homecomingqueen100 — December 02, 2009 — Believe it or not, all content in this video was made for primetime, aimed at children and aired on ABC without complaints! Music: "For Your Entertainment" - Adam Lambert

because its awesome....

because its awesome....
havent been in a few years but want to go this year....
i dont think i'll be able to though. :( poo.

do, do you know how to?

'do you know how to fix up a damaged me?...
can you fix my H-E-A-R-T?
cuz its D-A-M-A-G-E-D...
you can blame the one before'

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/d/danity_kane/damaged.html

M. Jackson

http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/435991/michael-jackson-tribute.jhtml#id=1620606

you.. yes you

don't worry about any 'rep' of yours.
I wont even mention you're name, its this new thing i'm trying (and failing at in person).

the only thing we can ever be is friends now.

I see I wasn't you're "one", and you're obliviously not mine.
I have never given/and never will give my exs another chance, and i wont lie to myself.
its never worth it. i will get over you.

One day you'll figure this all out, and we'll both be happy again. (or pretend to be if we're not if we see each other again)

I hope:
one day we can go back to being convenient for each other, and be able to talk, with no restrictions on what to say. (but i have this feeling we'll always be awkward)
that you learn how to be relevant with what you say...
you can get past your issues and emotional problems.
you'll care for someone as I did for you, but i hope they leave you in the same place as you left me...

I hope:
you can relay on me with things you use to.
you find another that finds the real you more than you ever let me find.

Most of all i hope you find the "one" you're still looking and left me for.


Good luck with that.

FYI: you should have offered. i was going to say no. but now according to your way of thinking now i have to wait for the next guy after the next guy before i can say yes.. "have to say no to your first offer."

P.S. I'm keeping the name!

i cant stop.

I don't want to be that mad person again.
But i cant stop being emotional about my life.

being mad only generates anger, and anger generates resentment.

I was doing wonderfully with getting out of being a mad person at everything all the time with your help. And now i cant stop being mad, and i cant stop being sad, and i cant stop.

I'm in a downward spiral of going back to being a horribly person and i cant stop myself.

i hate everything more than i did before, and i cant get rid of these damn emotions! I had them bottled up for a reason... I want them all to go away again!

i hate them, and i hate you.
i have nothing left, I'm a wreak... I've tried so many things to be happy; to even smile, and i cant.
I cant stop.


what do i do? i hate being emotional over something so stupid as a break up. I thought i was 'stronger' than that, and this sucks.
I dont know what to do anymore.... And i really dislike not knowing whats next

iCarly :D

yeah yeah... i'm lame.. but whatever!
i like the show.

Conversation.

Conversation.

what will become of the conversations we never had?
or the ones that could have ended differently?

hours.

hours.

4 hours of sleep last night... tried!

and i can stop thinking about the memories. & they wont stop playing like movie

happy town

Gosh damn!

I'm seeing that commercial ALL the time now, and its beginning to look stupid!!
There looks like to much sex and it looks like its trying to hard to be scary.

I cant watch anything on ABC, or tv with out that damn commercial showing up.

Doms hair.

holy shiz!

with her hair like that it reminded me of FireFly. The episode where Shepherd Book took his hair down...

http://cleverocity.com/albums/album12/Firefly_1x07_Jaynestown_254.sized.jpg (sorry i dont know how to make it a link that you click on and it goes to the page)

nails

nails

my nails are getting to long.. i have to figure out this gril thing of cutting them soon before they rip off.. piiaaann

Fences bite you in the face.

i swear they extended the fence out because the workers watched me run into it last week on monday.. wednesday it was farther out... then this last monday it was connected! so now there is no way for me to run into it.. but i can graze by it.. hehehe

-- everyone is connected in someway.
there was a guy that saw me run into the fence. he laughed at me... i turned red. i came into work the next day and this girl i work with (goes to my school) and she was talking about a girl that ran into a fence that a boy in her class told her about.... it was me... haha.
she laughed 'with me' (at me).
it was a great day. :)

First day back to work

First day back to work since that thing happened...
and its apirl fools day. ... how awesome.

i was asked if i wanted to go in on tuseday, but i opted out because i wanted to sit at home and mope all day. And i did!
we didnt have any icecream though. :(

but even if i went to work, i wouldnt have had a ride home and my other 'option' that isnt an option any more...
and i would have been in a non-client friendly mood.. so i would ahve been completly useless at work..

But today has been slow, and better.

john tesh radio show

john tesh says that guys figure out if they want to marry the person they're dating at 3 years 6 months and 20 days into the relationship (give or take about 5 days). if you're sayin no in your mind or out loud, end it. Dont keep her waiting. Thats all girls dream about. being happy, married, kids... and if you're not her guy, you're not worth being in her life... she may think you're the one for her but if you dont think it, she'll move on and find her one.

permit

I paid for a permit through Texas, and they sent me a license in the mail. How retarded!
I dont know how to drive or anything, havent taken any lessons, and technically i can go out now and drive whenever.... because they messed up.
the Permit now anyway is like an ID, as they give you a laminated card with your picture on it. that is good until you get your license or until your 20th birthday.

So yeah. I can go kill people... i mean drive... with out the knowledge, just the concept.
I also paid for a Texas ID, and they didnt send me one, so someone owns me an ID or my money back!