April 24th

Happy birthday sister. This year Easter happened to fall on your birthday, lucky you.

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Complaint:

Why am I your go-to girl/guy? Any of you that use me as one. And why is it when I actually have a girl issue (since I still am one, and rarely, but occasionally have girl issues) or any problem that I want to talk about, all but one of you back off and get unconformable. It really isn’t my fault that I am female, or that you talk to me. It also isn’t your fault that I have things I want to talk about, but com'on suck it up and talk about it...

Unfortunately with all of my friends I choose everyone that is like me, a "talk about me" personality. I try my best and tend to back down to talk about you. But me, forgive me when I want to talk about me and my past, even if it is slightly tied to your or a friend of yours. I’ll try to avoid it... but sometimes I just can’t.

I'm a horribly mean person, I already know this. I've tried to change, but nothing drastic has motivated me enough to stay that way for long periods of time..... So deal with it, or stop talking to me. I’ll let you choose.

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Next person: you know who you are!!! :) :*

You care a lot. Sometimes Way too much.
Do you really love GB? If you do, think of (NoName) and this situation you've gotten yourself into as a band-aid. Right now you're going as slow as frickin' possible, and it’s probably killin' him. Just rip off the band-aid, and if you want or he cares, try to go back to being friends. People really are not as naïve as the pedestals you are placing them on, he is probably already knows you’re going to leave him. But if you need it, please take your time. Then you can talk to me about what you want to do with the GB issue.

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I was going to copy, edit and past a note about you that I sent to someone else... But I’ve decided against it. Even tho she and I aren’t the best of friends, it turns out she is the only one I want to know about how I feel about you. She has almost everything I’ve ever wanted to say to you sitting in her inbox... even if she didn’t want to know as much as I gave her. Thanks for asking just the right question, in the right everything dealing with time, location, and setting, Bluest Eyes.

But I haven’t thought about it in a while, and thinking about it now the feelings seem to have gone back down to a normal controllable, easy to ignore level.