today May 21

the little things.

everyone says they dont matter than much, and they dont, but they make a world of a difference.
like changing a radio station, a new compliment everyday, a new conversation, and learning something new everyday about your best friend.

I dont know why i cant, but i cant stay there till 10, 11, 12, 3 am so any conversations that last longer than we intend them to should be done here.
and sleep-overs do need to be planned.. haha

gave Super Saiyans' parents the iPod i bought them. 5000 songs; They loved it. then they gave me a bunch of money for my graduation. i know his mom likes me! :) I dont know about his stepdad yet. but i love his parents.

I think the bigger questions have already come around and showed their ugly heads. it was dealt with rather well.

"how long, and why?"

In other news:
"soooo...sounds to me like you might have a new relationship/flirtation/crush thing going on?"

yep. after probation, we'll see how this plays out.
Getting into the right state of mind is key.
i still havent convinced myself, but i have nothing left to hide from him.
in the last week i have basically given him my life story about things that scare me, my fears, my past problems, past relationships and what went wrong, family crash course, dreams (both of what i want to do with my life, and the subconscious ones that occur when you sleep).
my mind is going to be the biggest problem. but it did get better today. hopefully it isnt what changes, because the "what ifs" will eat me alive.


Ke$ah is the song stuck in my head for the day. I've heard it about 5 times today.
"Your love is my drug"
(NO i'm not saying i'm in love, the affection is nice though.)


"What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you are away

So I got a question;
Do you want to have a summer party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like a native drum?
Is my love, your drug?"


July:
WHY the heck is everything happening in July?

July 24 Wicked!
July 27 Seeing a one night event with my dad
July 29 Concert - Today I the bought tickets for it with my moms money (With her permission)
July 31 WhiteMM's wedding... Hopefully she doesnt need me for anything tooooo important.
but because of my month of July, i am NOT taking a summer two class...... so I'm being very lazy this summer, first summer that i have done very little.
I do have a summer one, but i didnt take a Maymester as i usually would have.

French 1, is my summer class.

thats all i can think of for now.. :)
Wonderful day all - in - all.