Time

http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katy-perry-lyrics/mannequin-lyrics.html
Love this song. :) I love the way her voice sounds when she sings this song. :)
(I think it kind of sounds like mine, just better)


Time:
what a funny thing, kind of like love, but you cant just throw time around like it doesnt mean anything.
Hurry up and wait for me, does it even make sense?
I think thats how humans run. They think they are running out of time, so they rush through their lives not even looking around to stop and take a breath, and look around.

sure time doesnt wait, but you have to wait for the right time to do anything. you cant rush time, because then you dont stop to see what you're missing.
I'm not saying its wrong or anything, its how we're programed.

But I'm slowing down. after x ended it with me, i realised i was rushing. i was rushing everything so i think i was what when wrong. I have come to deal with that now, and I'm okay with it. But i know what i did wrong, and i know what not to do anymore.. So even though i think we are all programed to speed through life, i'm fighting myself everyday to just slow down and take each day as it comes. i still like plans to be in place, but if they dont happen it doesnt drive me as crazy as it did a few years, heck a few months ago.
Slow down, time will always be there, it'll be there even after we're not.



Emotions:
So many. So many i did know about. So many that i forgot about. So many that feel so good.
Sweaty palms, fast heart, nervous, shaking, anxiety (the good kind).

I forgot what all of these were. I was stuck in a routine for so long, they all disappeared. i was put in a situation today that was unplanned, unexpected, uncontrollable by me, and i didnt panic.

I'm really good about wanting something, getting it, getting scared and pushing away. Dont let me push away; i'll ruin a good thing.

This may not be anything, it may be something great. But dont let me ruin it before either of us have a chance to find out. I dont want to be someone that says "what if..."