my todays are getting later and later. May 22

"I've been reading your blog and I want you to know that I'm happy for you.
That's not true. I'm extremely jealous and I feel like a pile of crap. Read my blog:

[out of context, but this part seemed most relevant to my life]

My ex-girlfriend has found somebody new. This new person makes her truly happy. I have talked to her since the split, and I can see it in her, that she is genuinely happy in a way that she never was with me. This man can make her feel, in one day, what I could not make her feel in 4 years.

But seriously, in time, I will be happy for you. And I hope that you get everything that you deserve and everything that I could never give you." - x

I think its true. That with you i dont feel like i need to hide things, as it should be; but with him i needed to hide a lot, and didnt even realize i was doing it until after it was done.

So again regardless of what happens to us, for us, with us, never compare yourself to the boys that i have previously dated. I've done some stupid things, but everything in life happens for a reason and it all had to happen to get where i am now. I do feel a little sorry that you have found me in a worse mental state of mind then six years ago, but six years ago i was to naive to notice or care about how bad things were. so i thank you for giving me something to look forward to in the next day and for coming into my life in just the right time and in the right way.

it has been fantastic being a friend with you and i think that bond will give us a better chance at having something work out.

Thanks again for another wonderful day, for days that have past and for days that have yet to come. :)



So many things to remember in the month of May.
May 2nd: Bunches bday
May 9th: Uncles bday
May 10th: Was mothers day this year
May 11th: Baby Jacks bday
May 24th: Cousin Sandras' bday
May 27th: Aunt Missy's bday
May 27th: Bunches Wedding Anniversary
May 28th: Dom's bday