brown day

tomorrow is purple. :)

dear boy,
i've made a shit ton of errors in my life, mostly in relationships, so i thank you with all my heart for not holding my errors against me. regret is a wasted emotion, so i dont regret anything i've done.. i just wish i didnt do them to being with. this is why i process now. i dont want to fall into the same traps. i dont want to feel as i did.
good thing? i've never felt, as i do with you, with another. I'm not saying its love, i'm not saying its not, and i'm not saying it cant be one day. I am saying this is a new feeling, one i've never had, and i like this new high of happiness.

with that said, i'm going to work on the state of mind and change mine.

i am good.
i am wonderful.
i am amazing.
i am worthy.
i am not worthless.
i am scared but i am not terrified.
i may not be the best for you, but i am damn good.
i trust you, a lot. i cant/wont promise, but i'll try my best not to let you down.
thanks for having me look forward to another color & day
~girl.