order

i am ordering some nail files, since i have to learn how to do this thing now.. :s
and i get to the checkout line and it asks for a phone number in case anything goes wrong.
next to where you put your number in it says "Prefer land line phone, but cell phone is all right."
like if the person isnt going to answer the phone if you call the cell, what makes them think they'll answer the house....

i will never answer my house phone, so people better get use to leaving messages for me.

march 31st

Today is my cousins birthday.
i didnt call.. he's 7 today.
sent a text to my grandma to tell him happy birthday.

he makes me feel so old, because i use to change his diapers...

other than that, as mentioned before my cat went to ze vet.
and got his nails clip, he came home and went to a scratching post.
But fortunately he is over his intestinal infection; so he didn't get any shots today.

my day was awesome, because i wanted it to be. so i made it be.. up until i got to calculus.. then i couldnt get rid of the butterfly feeling from what had happened last time i was there...
But we started doing limits, i had to ingore it, cuz limits suck. its the worst part of calculus.
But things are looking up... and i hope they stay that way... because not eating for two days isnt a good idea... blah.

and i watched my favorite shows today.
1. the secret life of the american teenager. (awesome) -- the bitch thinks shes preg-o.
2. Ten things i hate about you!! best remade show ever! (from the movie -unfortunate no Heath Ledger :(...)
3. Degrassi (i know it needs to end already but i cant stop watching, its so good! i just need about 300 dollars to fall into my lap to buy the seasons that are out already.)

so other than that.... not much happened.

angel / whore?

"you are either the angel in the house or the whore in the street"
~Brit Lit teacher

Famine

done with the vet. and he doesnt want any treats. i'm pretty sure he's going to run and hide when we get home. he didnt need any shots or anything this time around so thats good.

clippers

getting his points cut off.. he doesnt like it.. hahaha

Vet office.

He doesnt like the vet.

mad

i wont be mad at him for any of this.
it is all his fault. but placing blame doesnt help, and doesn't even matter.

its all over now, and now i don't have to be tied down. somethings i need to let go of are:
so much time was wasted. He stopped caring "less than a year ago" but drug this out and drug me with him... He wasted almost a year of my life that i could have been using to get over him.
he always said "we'd marry our high school sweet hearts" i guess i wasnt his.
and i thought we cared about each other so much that we had kid names picked out. but i guess not.

Now that its all over though, i get to become the wonderful successful person i was going to be with out with out him, and i'll rub it in his face. He'll never get me back, and i will never lower my standers for men again.

so i talked to my parents and my closest friends about it, and i feel much better. hopefully the pain goes away faster because i talked to people about it. and i hope he doesnt find happiness for a LONG time, and he realizes what a drastic mistake he's made by just giving up on me.
he's also giving back the ring (on my request) only so he doesnt give it to some other skank in the future.

Frog or glove?

i thought there was a dead frog in our yard..
after taking a closer look its only a glove.. lame.

hahaha T said "maybe it was a frog that crawled into a glove and died a glove death" hehe spinning an Eddie Izzard joke..

There was no fixing it.

There was no fixing it. we just broke up. :(

last class of the day.

last class of the day. only two hours to go. then i get to go home and do homework... anything to take my mind off this shiz!

not the worst day

so the other day wasnt my worst day. they just keep getting worse and worse..
i'm sure there is an end in sight. i just dont want to see it right now.
i'm trying to be helpful to my realtionship but i'm just caring less & less. and it hurts more & more

fixing is a problem

i just want to give up. i hate this feeling & the way things are. i just want to cry all the time, & i dont want to try to fix this anymore. i just want it to all go away...

just go away.

i searched

my name today. and found a whole bunch of things i forgot about.. so i went to all the different sites that had my info on it, and deleted them.

I'm now back to being almost a nobody on the internet..

just the way it should be.

Sunday march 28th

As i said family and i were doing yard work today.
I got two appts in from my new job... that I hope works out, and both appts took up an offer of the things i talk about. yay me!

I got to do the first part of the presentation for the first time as well in my job, and i did really well; my trainers were really impressed with me.

my shoulders got burnt at the games. so they itch like crazy.. :(

other than that nothing really happened today.

weeding.. bla!

I had the task of shoveling up the weed roots. and there were huge bugs crawling up the shovel- beetles, spiders, and scorpions!

yard work sucks!

i should have taken a before picture but i didnt think about it.
but it looks GOOD!

Tigers blood

Went to San Antonio's highlander games on saturday

this was a flavor at the highland games. i wanted to try it. but didnt :(
i wish i had.

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American Lit I

I have an aweful teacher for my American Lit class. She is super old, and just go on and on and on about pointless things. Some would think "yeah cool, tangents = not learning"
Wrong! I wish!
What she doesn't go over in one class she'll try to fit into the next class, and we still have to know everything about the readings we're assigned, because if she doesn't go over them complete, or doesn't cover something in her lame test reviews, we're still tested on these things.
Which blows.

The first test everyone but three people failed.
This last test we just took, fourteen people passed (again with the "yeah!")
And again wrong. She thinks there is something wrong, or that the test was too easy. (which it wasn't!)
so she straight out told us that the next test is going to be incredibly hard so everyone fails again, that way the test averages go back down.


WHAT?!?!

Don't teachers WANT their students to pass?
Don't they WANT to look good for the heads or the department?

APPARENTLY not this one.

Yesterday 3-25-10

So yesterday didn’t go as planned... But does it ever?
Boyfriend and I didn’t get in a fight, but we had some really hard things that needed to be talked about. We’ve been dating for almost four years, and we're now talking about if this is relationship is the one we want to stay with.

Our relationship isn’t perfect; but again are any of them?

I said yes; he said no.

About two years ago he gave me a Claddaugh ring, and I gave it back to him last night. I don’t want it if he doesn’t know if he wants me. I told him that I would be more than happy to take it back if we can work though whatever issues he thinks we have, and that we (noticeably) have... But if we can’t, everything happens for a reason.

Today has literally been one of the worst day of my life, and he's out with his friends having a great time.

Claddaugh ring